Friday, 3 January 2014


For the first time, I'll be having my Final as a Human Resources Management student. Truth to be told, I have never been this unprepared. During my Dip I was always ahead of the game, but right here and now, because a lot, I really mean A LOOOOTSSS of problem coming in, I took my time to stand back up on my feet again.  So much, I wish  could just scream it out right now.

Anyhow, with this much time left, I pray and pray I could still do it. Still manage it. I want to show them, no matter how much they break me apart, I'm better than they thought. I am not just a Hotel Faculty student who have nothing to bring it. Well guess what, BRING IT ON. Also I want to show to that special someone, I know maybe I not good enough for her or her family but I am trying my very best on my own feet. So don't judge me. I was trying and there you go again criticizing and hurt me inside out. I am really sorry if I really take anything at all from you. I just wished I could talk about what really happen, so maybe you can just stop judging, cause it hurt so bad. It bring me down sometime cause your words are harsh. I know your are a successful women, and I'm just trying to start living. But please, find out the truth first, I know maybe you don't care. But I do. I listened enough. And when you decided to put the blame on me, if something when wrong with him, it so unfair to me. (lets just stop here cause it starts to feel hurt again cause i just wished i could tell him everything happened right now). Maybe just maybe one day, if gods will, you will stop hating me.

So for now, Gambateh Nadiah, haters going to hate.
 I'll be having 6 Papers. Gosh 6 killer papers. And, even the exam schedule are pack, making it so hard  for me to breathe. Hope I can go through this ALIVE. : D

  1. Human Resources (5 Jan 2014, Sunday)
  2. International Business (6 Jan 2014, Monday)
  3. Financial Management (10 Jan 2014, Friday)
  4. Business Law (13 Jan 2014, Monday)
  5. Information in Business Technology (15 Jan 2014, Wednesday)
  6. Operation Management (16 Jan 2014,Thursday)

WISH ME LUCK!!!!!!!! 



Assalamualaikum, n hey.
ya its been so long ago since my last post.
Time does flies. pejam celik pejam celik da 2014. Its was a quick one for me 2013, indeed it was.

What I did back then was, I work in an office as an HR&ACC assistant, well i gain alot of experience back then, so much goods and bad ones. And later in 2013, I get my degree call.
Well, guess what I've change my course. Yup, I put my passion behind. I put cooking and food behind for now. But never does the feeling and the urge to be back in the kitchen fade not even once. And until now, I missed the hectic, the heat, the Awsomeness, all the surprise and knowledge I could gain there. Its my heart and soul. Not even a second I've doubted that, I love learning about food, I could just go on and on. Maybe one day just one day I could till have my Bachelor in Science Culinary Arts. Its still my dreams.

As for now, and two more years to go, I just have to finished what I've started. BACHELOR IN HUMAN RESOURCES MANAGEMENT. I always love learning, and reading, I know I had tried hard, but sometime it feels I did not try hard enough. Maybe because it is not 100% of my passion here. I do read and study but the sparks and the adrenaline is just not there anyhow. Worst come to worst I still need to finish my journey. I'm pushing my self, and it quite hurting deep down inside, cause well Damn I miss Culinary.
*SIGH* Watching my ex course mate still pursuing in that make me so envy at times. But this is the routes I have choose. I prayed I can still do this at my level best, maybe not like last time, but maybe just around there, or maybe if I can be daring enough, maybe I could go further and be better.

The different between this course is too vary, one is about food and one more is to manage human. I'm still learning on how to manage the ridiculously ridiculous human behavior here.
Truth to be told, here in Melacca through out the semester, it has been a hell of the ride.
My campus is only a 16th floor building. It not even can be call a campus, we are here in the middle of the city. So many challenges have to be face, the transportation problem, place to stay, high living cost, even crime level here is high. Its scared the hell out of me, and even till now its does.
Also in term of finding new friends, practically hard, as everyone else stuck with their old batch mate, and I'm the new one from hotel faculty.

So basically, I'm on my own.  Hmm mentioning about friends here, just making it hurt somehow, even to trust anyone here are quiet impossible. There a lot I've learned through Diploma, but never once I experienced this kind of attitude. Here I did. So many, hurtful and unforgivable people I've met. Their attitude are just unacceptable. I try to be nice and keep on giving and I was stabbed not in the back but right in front. Believe me, it very hard to make me to hate people, almost impossible but they successfully just did it. It broke me apart completely, and I cried for days, fell sick because I cant believe there are such peoples. And that I've learned here. I forgive, but never forget. Maybe u can break me cause I'm all alone here,and maybe taking advantage are your best strength but there's Allah. What goes around comes back around.

Maybe the only friends I really can be comfortable I think with my committee member when we organizing all the project and event together. Ya I forget to mention, I was choose by my lecturer for an interview to be a committee member of the HR SOCIETY and guess what I pass somehow and become one of their Exco. Never once I thought I going to made through my studies and even get in as Exco member yet I did.
In few more weeks I'll finishing this semester. I just hope I pass with flying colours.