the reason, well, actually, demam da nak masuk 2 -3 days, and my tummy really giving me a rough day. aiyo, what to do..
hmm, in this post actually i want to tell u behind the scene of life, well, personal part of it, here and there.
eventhough my social life is a haywire as i told, but i do keep good companionship with twopeople that very closed and understand me.
well, first and foremost of cz my bestie and boyfriend.
miss kathleen fernandez, me and her, do hang out, when we are free.. but its so hard to get the free time together, i know, IMISSHERALOT, but i glad we have this understanding, that its doesnt count how long we didnt contact each other but, thought that count. well, that my side thinks,but im sure she does the same. but no matter what, if we really need someone to talk, we always find each other, maybe not on the spot, but, theres always a moment, when we will, spill all out for each other to listen. and it will, be ALONG CONVERSATION for us. But this new year starting out great for us, cause we get to go for SIMPLE PLAN CONCERT together man, its been all our teenage year finished waiting for them to come, and we get to do it together, and i am so really GLAD.. ILOVEUCAT!
And im sorry that i couldnt be with u on your birthday, again im really sorry. but i hope u understand. ive been tied up on another occasion with another person you know, WHO. i know, only u will forgive me for this. and understand the reason i have to do this. well, i hope u will. and i promised, i will make up for our date later on okay?
The second person, who i will, crazily, find time to spend is my dear boyfriend.
MR ZAI ZEFFERY, of cause i will, always. but its never easy for us doh, as we always have problems comes in our way. But im so lucky, that we always try to understand. Even there sometime will be big understanding between us, and we would lost contact for few days maybe weeks, but at the end, we will talk it out. Well its not easy for me, to do that. but with him, i dont know why, i just let it be. i dont want to push him to much, cause i dont know, maybe he just to nice. and i know, he most time are like me in certain ways of thinking stuff. Its feel nice to have someone thinks study is important, and love is also important, the only thing we need is BALANCING. For now, the main event ive been waiting is to be with him again. To relax my body and mind for while before i working again whole day long. Ive been planning to go to visit him, and insyallah, on this 11th i will fly there. I just want to be with him on his birthday and make him happy. He been trying so hard studying. And i know the reason why, and i feel very guilty because of what happen. So the only thing i could do to feel less guilty, is be there for him, cause i knw, next week going to be very tough week, with assignment and test a row straight. Being there to support him, the least thing i could do, for his hardwork. Its not like we get to spend whole day together, just that, i'll be closed to you when u need me this time sayang, dont worry, i know u got stuff to do, i will bring my work as well, so if u are busy enough, i will occupied my self with my work too. We planned to spend as much time together actually, but then, it turns out it will be a very busy week for him. . So praying that everthing will turn out good as we need some sunshine after all those bad storm we have last few weeks also last few month. Well, our relationship, has been tested so many times with so many problems, i mean it not us, u know, it something we have to faced it if we want to be together. That is why we trying so hard to prove, that we being together is not wrong, and to do that takes lot of effort. and i know his trying his ass off working for our relationship, thats why, i just want to be there for him... hmm, im lucky my parents understand, and let me going there alone. I thanked them very much for this. and im glad they trust him and me, being matured, also thank god, HE let atleast my side to make it easier for us.
sayang, i cant wait to see u, i've done few things for u, hope u like it, cz my time is very limited, but, i do with all my love. so see u pretty soon my dear, <3
so for this two person, thanks a bunch cause atleast, u are the best people that ive ever known, and i can rely on, whole life, i prayed for us always together in thick and thin. LOVE U GUYS <3