HAISH ... selabut ohh..

this is what i will be going through next few weeks..



MONDAY (22 AUG)
COST CONTROL TEST'

 TUESDAY (23 AUG)
RESTAURANT OPERATION TEST

WEDNESDAY (24 AUG)
CTU PRESENTATION

THURSDAY (25 AUG)
ACCOUNT QUIZ

FRIDAY
SUBMIT BEL ESSAY


SATURDAY-SATURDAY (26 AUG- 4 SEP)
RAYA???
NAHH!
- ASSIGNMENT REST. OPERATION
- ASSIGNMENT ACCOUNT
-ASSIGNMENT COST CONTROL
-STUDY FOR UPCOMING ACCOUNT TEST

ARRGGHH, serabut actually kepala, cause i dont have ebough time for all of this, i dont even sure that i can done and do my best with all of this or not! but the important things is i will try my best, to
GIVE ALL OUT!!
its the path i choose to take, so HANG IN THERE!

GONATS!.

p/s : IMYSM :(

things do works at last :) thank you allah..

hmm, as my previous post was so frustrating ( i know -.- puurrrggghh)
but at last, Allah makes it a little easier during the breaks..

Well, not all of my plan do went well, but atleast, most of it does..

the first day im back, after Zai pick me early morning at the bus station, (which is the first guy ever did that for me, thank you Sayang), i went out wit my dearest KATHLEEN FERNANDEZ which i miss her teribbly much! we went to her school, where there a carnival and had fun together which we both never had for so long  and we actually do henna together! >.< .
Although it was a really short time with her, but she make my day.. thank you vey much BOYFIE KU!



During last whole semester break, i should went for study with Zai at shah alam library, but unfortunately we didnt know that the library was actually already moved to somewhere else, which supposed to be in sek 13. ( see how long i didnt go back to Shah Alam)
we searched and searched for two days the libarary location, but it just a dissapointment because not even a glimspe of the sign board anywhere.

On the next day, which is Tuesday, after few hours trying to find a place to study we given up. :(
yes we did, and we have too, because we were exhausted, going round and round and round in the car without any direction with all the round a bouts that makes me dizzy..
And, lastly Zai decide to take me for breakfast at summit :) I managed to study a bit at the Old Town White Cofee while waiting for my food.
Next, we went around and around again, with no place to go, and at last we end up buying my stationery in Taipan, and have a walk together, which is fun as it been so long i have spend time with him..
Later at 2 pm, we wnet at pick his sister up in her school, and actually we should send her to Summit for her Bowling Practice, but then she cancle it because she lazy! hah, then Zai and I have to think again where we should spend our evening as her sister just cancel on that.
Last ly, we decide to wacthed movie which is MR POPPER PENGUIN in Summit!!!!.
I'm happy the whole day long :)



Well on wednesday we should go out and study and later buy some stuff, but he had to cancelled it due to some reason :(

This is the best part of my Holiday!. THURSDAY :)
on thursday, Zai and I went for HARRY POTTER!!!!!!!
YAY, atlast i got to watch  the last HARRY POTTER in cinema : D
Atlast, i got to spend proper DATE with him on this day, as
 1. we went for movie,
2. had our lunch at ICHIBAN RAMEN
3. hang out with his friend for awhile and get to know them
4. and jus being with him is AWESOME ^^



FRIDAY, is the last day im at home. Well, Zai wanted LASAGNE, so i cooked for him. And after Solat Jumaat, he pick me up to his house to study ACC with him and eat the lasagne together. FYI, im really damn sacred, because it is my first time im going to meet his parent! Well im comfortable with his sisters, but im really scared with his mom, cause from all i knew, she is really strict, but as he insist his mom going to be okay, im just go along with his planned, eventhough im so scared!!!!
So, atfirst, only his dad and sister at home, but when his mom finally home, that when i freaking out, (this is my first time i met any of my BF parent ok??)
i just went and salam his mom as ussual, but in my heart only god know how trembling i am.
and after a while i try to blend in with his family, well they are okey :) but as i told u before, his mom is pretty scary! huhu, not in a bad way la, jus scary in a way, you know, when her son bring a girl to study at home???
After hours there, and finally i get my account exercise balanced, i decided to go home, his mom do invite me to dinner there, but im sacred, and also still shy with them all..

to be truthfull actually i already ask Zai to treat me Cake or Ice cream for last time we together, so we both  quietly just went out together for the last time that night before our last goodbye.
(with excuse to his mom that sending me home :p)
SO HE TAKE ME TO SECRET RECIPE, GIANT, PUTRA HEIGHT HEEE :)
and there i get my cake and als ice cream :D



its a really sad moment for me, as during this whole weeks he's there for me, most of the time im in need he always will try to make it happen.

thank you very much Zai Zeffery b Zainudin, :) you make my holiday so MEANINGFUL! merci <3

if only i knew..

if only i knew things are going to turn out this way,
i surely wont be home,
if only i knew i going to get dissapointed,'i wouldnt give so much hope,
if only i realised there already the sign im going to get upset,
i wouldnt have be so excited on the first place.

its my fault, i knew it was. i just shouldnt have expected much, i should trust my self, things always turn around the bad way for me.
i shouldnt get excited for the first place at all..

im really want to see HP badly, espcially the last one, n with someone i really comfortable, so i end my childhood movie that i love with a memorable experience.

but now, i knew things just not happening the way we've planned. i dont know the reason im home.
i really should be in penang and just study there alone. why am i home? theres no concrit reason!

its just the same, im alone there, and being here and all plan was cancelled, then it no point im here,
so much i have to do, and i brought it all here to do, if only i knew, i can just finish all my work there.

its useless to give even small  hope that i can feel a bit happy for a week here, all ruin.
im hurt so much, thank you..

ya allah..

ya ALLAH,
aku memohon kepadamu,
engkau kuat kan lah aku dan keluarga tempuhi dugaan yang engkau berikan ini ya allah,
engkau kuat kanlah kami untuk terus menempuhi ini dengan kuat ya Allah.
kau berikanlah sedikit kekuatan untuk kami terus berusaha dan meneruskan perjuangan ini.
aku memerlukan tika ini bantuan mu Ya Allah.
semoga dugaan demi dugaan yang engkau berikan ini, memberi satu hikmah di akhir nanti..
sesungguhnya aku memohon pada mu YA ALLAH..

IMY YOU GUYS :'(

Assalamualaikum guys and girls..
sorry for taking so long to update. i kinda need to gather my strenght and mood back type in this blog..

well i do have some little free time to update actually, just feeling quiete down and lonely since im back in penang..

normal weeekdays, i would feel it sometime but as class after class and my damn busy schedule, ussually its distracted me from it, and i just forget it after that. but every time weekend comes, and now as i dont have class every fridays, the loneliness just creep slowly and fill my heart and making me sad.

well the truth is, i do want to enjoy my self here like everyone else.
shopping, movies, hang out with friends, but then BOOM, the fact came,  i forget im all alone in penang.
so at last, i decide to just stuck in the house, or to be specific, sometime just in the room.
well, been few weeks, it does not bother me much, but this week out off sudden i just cant take it anymore..

i really miss my boy friend! ----------> KATHLEEN FERNANDEZ



and not to forget ,
i miss my stitchy so much! ------------> ZAI ZEFFERY



i miss both of u badly, :'(
only with both of u with me whole day long i feel perfectly fine and happy..
cant wait to go home this july and meet both of you!!..
ILOVEYOU!! <3 <3

but for now, just have to be strong for awhile until, both of you spoilt me in july again Ok?
promise?
 i have to start my revision if i dont want to left behind in my studies. i have to work extra hard, as this sem, all subject are mostly numbers, and my schedule to pack!
so i need to get up on my feet and find time to studies!! START STUDY NATS!

WAKE UP, BE STRONG, AND STUDY!!, GONATS!!!!!!!!!!

:) its feels like home to me

today feel a bit better..
yesterday, i got to smile, laugh, smirk, cry and tears..
i've never feel so lively, since so long..
even there some incident that make my mood off and on alot, bt there was him there to make me feel better..
thnx u sweet pea :)..
yesterday, was fun at sidang redaksi hi-tea.. everything when well..
and most importantly, one of my long long lost forgetten dream, come true..
and suddenly my friends arimi approach me,

kimi: "nad, sedar x siapa duduk blakang kau?"
i was like: "who?"
kimi : "KHAI n ROSMA laa..
me : kau biar betul!! turn around and 0.0 (shock to death)

hahaha, tats wat happen, waaa i reallly love them. n hv no idea y, always dream to meet them.. n tat when it all happen.. alas, my dream come true. seriously as my busy life growing up, i totally forget abut my lil kids dream, and as seeing them yesterday its all come back to me..
okeyh for you guys information, i love KHAI n ROSMA couple eversince i standard 6..
i love them so much..
bt sorry i didnt snap any pic or anything, as they are having their lunch and im having my event it self..
and as i said i was having my on n off mood, hw cn i?
haha weird off me right? i used to collect all their pictures, be in his fan club, follow his news, remembered all his song in his album, and also buy magaZine jus because his wedding is in there! for me they are sweetest couple ever!
all my friends in high school knows im crazy about them :p

btw move on to next..
after the hi-tea..
me and zai, when to padang rekriasi near to my house to hang out.
we have our talk n jus sit there together was fun...
pity him as i clamp him wit me, because i dont want to go home so early,..
sorry sayang... hehe
 and after he send me home, my mom as always make me buy groceries with him..
hehehe.. sorry again yang..
but.. the truth is, i love buying groceries wit him! :)
it always so much smile and laughter : D
for short im happy when with him


thank you sayang :)
u make me feel like home at last.. <3 <3 <3


p/s: sorry n pic, i didnt bring my cable for my camera n also i dont have memory card reader.. so i post it later for u guys k.. peace out !

:( nobody's home..

sometimes i wish i stuck in penang still and still studying without any semester break..
,maybe 1 week break more than enough for me and then continue with next semester..

you know why?
i dont really think theres a purpose for me coming back shah alam. :(
this time im really am tired trying to make everyone else happy.
im stuck, im totally stuck in the middle of everything happen.
with my mom, my friends feelings, with his feeling, till i did not have time to think about what i should really feel.
i just wish im still in penang right now, studying and fill all my time with my work and studies, so that i would not overwhlemed with all this..

im so tired, there no one here asked me, what do i want?
am i ok?.
or try to make me feel happy atleast.

truthfully, im quiete hurt with everyone around here..
and sitting at home doing nothing and with no one around to talk, make me feel more hurt..

:'(