ya allah..

ya ALLAH,
aku memohon kepadamu,
engkau kuat kan lah aku dan keluarga tempuhi dugaan yang engkau berikan ini ya allah,
engkau kuat kanlah kami untuk terus menempuhi ini dengan kuat ya Allah.
kau berikanlah sedikit kekuatan untuk kami terus berusaha dan meneruskan perjuangan ini.
aku memerlukan tika ini bantuan mu Ya Allah.
semoga dugaan demi dugaan yang engkau berikan ini, memberi satu hikmah di akhir nanti..
sesungguhnya aku memohon pada mu YA ALLAH..

IMY YOU GUYS :'(

Assalamualaikum guys and girls..
sorry for taking so long to update. i kinda need to gather my strenght and mood back type in this blog..

well i do have some little free time to update actually, just feeling quiete down and lonely since im back in penang..

normal weeekdays, i would feel it sometime but as class after class and my damn busy schedule, ussually its distracted me from it, and i just forget it after that. but every time weekend comes, and now as i dont have class every fridays, the loneliness just creep slowly and fill my heart and making me sad.

well the truth is, i do want to enjoy my self here like everyone else.
shopping, movies, hang out with friends, but then BOOM, the fact came,  i forget im all alone in penang.
so at last, i decide to just stuck in the house, or to be specific, sometime just in the room.
well, been few weeks, it does not bother me much, but this week out off sudden i just cant take it anymore..

i really miss my boy friend! ----------> KATHLEEN FERNANDEZ



and not to forget ,
i miss my stitchy so much! ------------> ZAI ZEFFERY



i miss both of u badly, :'(
only with both of u with me whole day long i feel perfectly fine and happy..
cant wait to go home this july and meet both of you!!..
ILOVEYOU!! <3 <3

but for now, just have to be strong for awhile until, both of you spoilt me in july again Ok?
promise?
 i have to start my revision if i dont want to left behind in my studies. i have to work extra hard, as this sem, all subject are mostly numbers, and my schedule to pack!
so i need to get up on my feet and find time to studies!! START STUDY NATS!

WAKE UP, BE STRONG, AND STUDY!!, GONATS!!!!!!!!!!

:) its feels like home to me

today feel a bit better..
yesterday, i got to smile, laugh, smirk, cry and tears..
i've never feel so lively, since so long..
even there some incident that make my mood off and on alot, bt there was him there to make me feel better..
thnx u sweet pea :)..
yesterday, was fun at sidang redaksi hi-tea.. everything when well..
and most importantly, one of my long long lost forgetten dream, come true..
and suddenly my friends arimi approach me,

kimi: "nad, sedar x siapa duduk blakang kau?"
i was like: "who?"
kimi : "KHAI n ROSMA laa..
me : kau biar betul!! turn around and 0.0 (shock to death)

hahaha, tats wat happen, waaa i reallly love them. n hv no idea y, always dream to meet them.. n tat when it all happen.. alas, my dream come true. seriously as my busy life growing up, i totally forget abut my lil kids dream, and as seeing them yesterday its all come back to me..
okeyh for you guys information, i love KHAI n ROSMA couple eversince i standard 6..
i love them so much..
bt sorry i didnt snap any pic or anything, as they are having their lunch and im having my event it self..
and as i said i was having my on n off mood, hw cn i?
haha weird off me right? i used to collect all their pictures, be in his fan club, follow his news, remembered all his song in his album, and also buy magaZine jus because his wedding is in there! for me they are sweetest couple ever!
all my friends in high school knows im crazy about them :p

btw move on to next..
after the hi-tea..
me and zai, when to padang rekriasi near to my house to hang out.
we have our talk n jus sit there together was fun...
pity him as i clamp him wit me, because i dont want to go home so early,..
sorry sayang... hehe
 and after he send me home, my mom as always make me buy groceries with him..
hehehe.. sorry again yang..
but.. the truth is, i love buying groceries wit him! :)
it always so much smile and laughter : D
for short im happy when with him


thank you sayang :)
u make me feel like home at last.. <3 <3 <3


p/s: sorry n pic, i didnt bring my cable for my camera n also i dont have memory card reader.. so i post it later for u guys k.. peace out !

:( nobody's home..

sometimes i wish i stuck in penang still and still studying without any semester break..
,maybe 1 week break more than enough for me and then continue with next semester..

you know why?
i dont really think theres a purpose for me coming back shah alam. :(
this time im really am tired trying to make everyone else happy.
im stuck, im totally stuck in the middle of everything happen.
with my mom, my friends feelings, with his feeling, till i did not have time to think about what i should really feel.
i just wish im still in penang right now, studying and fill all my time with my work and studies, so that i would not overwhlemed with all this..

im so tired, there no one here asked me, what do i want?
am i ok?.
or try to make me feel happy atleast.

truthfully, im quiete hurt with everyone around here..
and sitting at home doing nothing and with no one around to talk, make me feel more hurt..

:'(

last day of april!

well i m supposed to be studying now but then here i am updating my blog.
bad girl. bad girl am i..
tomorrow, im going to have my

MARKETING paper, which will be one of killer paper!

and on 2nd may im coming back to shah alam, but seriously, im not looking fowards at all to go back this semester break,
i just feel that i want to be here in penang.
it the same anyaway, in my house here alone , and at home there alone.
there no different at all..
there not really a purporsed there, so i dont know why.
and im so feelingless to go home.

but anyway, i hope i can do well. i have no idea whats wrong with me now..
i dont want to make other things disturbing my focus right now.
mood study datanglaa please,
tinggal nak baca je ni!
i really need to focus this last minute!

i will off now and try to read my notes. so guys pray for me tomrrow really need it :) tq.

GONATS FOCUS PLEASE!

weird right, when we stress and bored we will do ANYTHING!

ASSALAMUALAIKUM..

(sbnrnye since just now ive been stalking people blog cause damn bored. then i found this test so out of sudden just nak answer test ni and post.. korang layan la kegilaan aku ni yeh) [peace out guys]




1) nama-nama pelik yang orang lain pernah panggil kau?

- gonats

- sayur

- chubby

- nutsiest girl

- congga longga

- comot

- nadoya



2) pernah merantau ke?

- wait is this count?
-  i do when i camping : langkawi for 7 days
- celebrating mr stitch birthday at terengganu
- and staying at penang nw almost a year


3) keturunan?

- emak; malbari + mamak + arab etc, (im nt so sure hw many more tsk)
- abah; malay, melaka malay


4) hobi kau?

- cooking

- reading

- jogging

- dating (hehe)

- almost everything with ing~~ hikhik



5) peel makanan kau?

- i dont eat rice! (i mean like everyday okeyh)
- i need vegetable everyday!

- love only healthy food (im very health concious)
- i hate fast food

- kena ada pedas



6) kau rasa kau pelik tak?

kalau tak kenal aku pun kau mesti cakap dia ni asal gila sangat.. hahaha, yesh i am weird laaahh.. im a very crazy and a very weirdo! even orang yang da kenal aku bertahun pun atleast once in a while soalan 'nad ko ni asal pelik sangat' haha takkan penah miss seyh, so yes IM A WEIRDO.. =D



7) kenapa kau jawab soalan boring ni?

sebab aku tengah boring, really bored!



8) kau nak tag sapa2 tak?

taknak, really no thanks, tak nak diorang terjebak cam aku..



9) kau ni jiwang tak?

bole la kadang aku LAYANNNN je.. bt mostly seganas2 aku romantic itu perlu kan?



10) kau suka masak tak? masakan kegemaran?

duh.. like eversince LOL.. sekarang pun aku ambil course culinary arts so buat ape lagi kalu tak brush up my cooking skill kan..  i love to cook western food, especially saladss!



11) perangai pelik kau?

- aku diam bila aku marah

- aku menangis bila aku nak release stress

- aku suka sangat makan tauhu dengan sos

- nasi bukan makanan ruji aku, its sayur! hee

- aku akan bwat keje gile yang bulew bagi aku adrenaline rush bila aku tak dapat control diri aku

- aku suka duduk dalam gelap sebab its calm me down

- aku suka panjat and jerit-jerit bila aku hyperactive tak kisah kat mana2

- kalau weekend or cuti, aku malas mandi, malas makan, malas keluar rumah sebab aku rasa tak penting pun semu tuhh.

12) dah berapa kali couple?sekarang single?

well, to be truth i hate to be in a relationship when tak serious laa..
tapi i still does haha. so the truth is bru dua kali je sepanjang 19 tahun ni hidup. and now still with my sayang la..



13) cepatlah jawab soalan atas tadi.
- da jawab da pown, pss sengal laa.



14) kau nak melancong ke mana?

- Australia

- German (nak jumpa AXEL!)

- Paris (Nak improve my cooking skill and used my french yg da blaja ckit2)

- New Zealand (nak visit bukit2 kt sana and skiing!)

- London (tu kota2 yg lawa kat sana tu)

- and kat mana2 yang ad DISNEY LAND teringin sangat2! (klu bole honey moon skli :p)



15) boring tak test ni?

tak la, cause aku pun tengah boring!



16) haiwan yang pernah kau pelihara?

- ikan arowana

- ikan laga
- ikan emas hitam

- ikan flowerhorn



17) kau rasa kau hebat tak malam pertama nanti?

weyh ! apakah? kau boring sangat eyh sampai tanya soalan cmni?



18) kau rasa kau hot?

kata pown sekarang aku stay penang? ko rasa penang ni cmne? of course la, Im freaking HOT here!



19) happy tak test dah nak habis?

tak la sangat, cause aku tengah boring ni, rasa cam nak layan jew.. huhu



20) listkan 10 nama-nama orang yang paling kau sayang selain keluarga.

1) Zai Zeffery

2) Kathleen Fernandez

3) Suhaku

4) Wardah Sakinah

5) Coconut

6) Axel

7) Afiq

8) Kimi

9) Fae

10) Housemate akuh!

bwat masa ni, nama diorang la terpahat di sanubari.. ramai lagi laa but mereka2 ini la yang teman saat suka duka aku sentiasa.. thnx guys :)

FINAL!

can i make it this sem?
hmm, like seriously, i have no FREAKING idea.

so here it goes, yesterday was my first test, and i did bad with my ctu (agama) essay.
its not that i didnt read, well i did study for my test, yes i did, i dont know what went wrong.
so now im upset with my self..

i really want to score again, and i want to score much better pointer for this sem, but can i make it?
i really dont know..
im kinda different this sem, its like my spirit went missing, it comes and goes like wind..
problems sometime just keep coming,
and i seems cant find a way to avoid it..

i need you now ---------> ZAI ZEFFERY B ZAINUDIN

well anyway, i do miss him,
but the important thing now is.............................

nats do your best!!
i need to get DL again, if not i will be totally made my mom feel i dissapointed her and.....
i will embrassed with him and myself!
i probably will avoid seeing you zai if i didnt get DL this sem, cause i do feel inferior,as you are the genius one..
so GONATS, pray for me guys..
i want to be able meeting him without feeling damn DOWN!

GONATS!

p/s: i got 3 paper left ( BEL, MARKETING, FOOD SCIENCE)