CRUELTY

yup that right.. fitness are actually fine. but the things with cruelty only hit me after i do sparing..
sparing is when you have to fight your opponent and to win you have to get highest mark, by kicking either, front kick, side kick, back kick and etc.

also punching is a must. and also if u get to make ur opponent fall u will get 3 marks, which is high marks..

and for sure u get big applause for it..

huh, that what about sparing.. i love fitness, when i can push my self, to the limit where i tought that i couldnt do, but actually i can make it.. jus need to make sure your mental is strong enough to reach the beyond that you think you cant.

this study week is for me, fitness week and relaxation week, i have no idea why i am so relax, and i cant get my butt and especially my mind to the study mode..
i have no freaking idea why. so i just go for training every morning, came back and eat, and then rest the whole day, and its repeating this whole week the same schedule..
i know i such in bad condition because not studying, but i don't know. i jus got the feeling that i can do the final..
maybe i really need a good rest after all.
but anyway nats u have to study okayh?
and stop making excuses, you are not genius.!

by the way here some picture of the cruelty because of sparing..

ME bruises everywhere now

this one hmm, my finger bone mislocate.

post to TERENGGANU atlast

dear zai,
this is to boost UP ur semangat from pulau pinang.

it just a hand made card, not expensive of cause.
but i made it almost 3 hours, so you! better appriciate it okeyh.. hehe
and to post it to you take an hour an half, as so many obstacles came up, i tried eveything i can to make sure i managed to post it to u..
huhu.. i hope u received it a.s.a.p!
even its nt that AWESOME as the ready made one buuuuuuuuuuuuuuut..
thought that count right?
i hope he like it, :)
he such a angel to me, so i hope with this, i can atleast return his favour to me..


anyway good luck to me and him and anybody for this final exam!
BBSYAA! 
CHAIYOK!
BONNE CHANCE!

im so DEAD MEAT.

HAHAHA..
Next week are absulotely going to kill me..

SUNDAY : study, STUDY, study,assignment ASSIGNMENT,, evening STAMINA FITNESS

MONDAY : morning, HAFAZAN, evening RETAILING test evening : stamina fitness


TUESDAY : afternoon HOSPITALITY and TOURISM test, evening : stamina fitness, night FOOD HYGIENE test!


WEDNESDAY : morning food hygiene PRESENTATION,  evening test KESATRIA, night : stamina fitness


THURSDAY :  evening : stamina fitness,night EXPOSER FRANCE,

FRIDAY : evening SENSORY test, night KITCHEN PRACTICAL test (need to prepare appertizer, soup, main course) 

SATURDAY & SUNDAY: STAMINA FITNESS, FITNESS STAMINA, + SPARING + SPARING!



the result of This torture will be update, (if im managed to stilll be alive) haha..
till then toodles~~

piss!

i had enough from u.
u never hear me, but always keep lying around. LIE LIE!
As if u are the angel, u do  the things right, and im bad, im the devil, and im the stupid  one because cant understand u do it  for the good of us..
please, i dun see that nowhere!
And the stupidest thing i do, is to believe u, and to fall in love with u so deeply..!
one day, you will realised how u hurt me bad.
and one day u will be sorry until u cant even see my face and say sorry.
and when that day come ill makesure my heart is shield and fully protected from ur lie again!
i want to shout and let the world know that i hate u, bt deep inside i know i cant hate u for long.  i will stay away from u, AWAY, so that i will never fall for u again. all this while i try to protect my feelings for u.
but that bot going to happen anymore longer. I had ENOUGH.
after this let allah show me the way how i should really to feel about you.
im thankfull  to allah because opened my heart to read ur page yesterday, if not until now, im being cheat and lie.

 i am so sure, starting now, i, my self cant decide what are my feelings towards u!

update update..

1. i won 4th placed at ujian larian smlm, it about only 1.5 km. within (8-10 min i guess my time)

2. i did grammar test which is hard yesterday evening, and last night got quiz mengejut, n guess what it FRENCH for god sake. huh 0.0

3. ok today ill be having
-listening french test,
-managment test, (that will be damn hard, surely sure)
- kithcen class and kitchen test

puuuurghhhhhhhhhhhhhh, believe me, today i will be exhausted! n tomorrow when i plan on hang out and relax, i got ceramah in the morning, and its a 4 hour damn boring ceramah i have to attend. uh. and later at night i got raye feast "yg shokingly WAJIB, ya ya whatever, as if the activity here never wajib, evrytime it compulsary,!

oh gosh, what am i doing, nats!
u better stop now, u got test and yet u blog, oh nadiah syahirah.!
ok lets think OPTIMISTIC~
BBASYA! FIGHTING, I CAN DO THIS! 


k guys till i shall blog again.

cursing me!

DAMN! Nats.. what happen to you huh!
u waste all holiday doing stupid and meaningless things. sigh*
<i am not i just following the flow here so im not being dicth by my family over and over again>
stop giving stupid reason.
all this thought haunted me everyday,
i feeling guilty because of not touching my assignment and books, but still then i really dont have the time.
i admit i lazy but not purposely, RAYA make me tired and bored and my mood swings alot.
i really want to go back to penang to relax my self and to STUDY, i miss studying

im so upset with myself

but i really am freaking out, because next week tests coming up! how im supposed to survive when i did not study at all..
nats u r spoiling yourself to much.. wake up, WAKE UP!!
(smacking my head to make me come back to reality sounds a good idea)
sengal, that not going to work especially for me.! i need something much extravaganza than smacking my head. LIKE WHAT??!!



ok nats, breath, dear me please come back ASAP, because i need to finish all my assignment and study.
i hope after i reach penang this friday i still have time! *crossing finger*


OH NATS! please, you need to booster up nutsiest GAL, if not you are totally dead!

HAPPY

im so so happy now..
my dearest friend, send me a percel frm german :)
he send like a lot of things and also a letter..
a letter (as i said), a duck (i named shunshine), lavender seed, candle, lavender soap (he said HALAL), and mostimportand, LAVENDER.
im so happy :) thnx dear..
i really shock cause he did send me all those stuff..
and most importantly, he send me lavender.!
yes he did send me lavender..
eventhough it wilted but it smell still good!..
im so extremly happy..!!!!!!!!!
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. thank you Axel Schiller. :)
im so grateful to have a friend like you..
may god bless you always :)

it for ME:)

ducky >mr shunshine

candle and lavender seeds

letter frm him :)

lavender soap

all about me in france i write here later